Religion

So, according to the banner thing I'm in the 'figuring out' stages of my life and this is true. However I don't really discuss to many of my thoughts on life here because as much as I thin- it's important to reflect in a philosophical manner it is also helpful to do so in a journalistic one too. The journalistic type also has the added bonus of being easier and more enjoyable to read. Thus this is one I tend to write in... I li-e to -eep my reader(s) happy.

But today, the topic of religion is on my mind lately.

My mother's religious. Many members of my extended family are deeply religious.
I taught Sunday School and Vacation Bible School for many years.
I attended religious school for three years.
A couple of years ago, I thought I had it figured out... then I too- a step bac- to reavaluate what it was that I was saying/believing.
I've been in that stage since then.

When people as- me (especially deeply religious family members) about this stage I say I'm using this period of my life to really figure out and question what it is that I want to believe. Isn't it better to thoughtfully decide then blindly believe?

So, I said this to a cousin a couple of days ago and what she said struc- me... Was I consciously wor-ing at this (wor-ing, thoughtfully, honestly, being the -ey words) or letting it slide onto the bac- burner?

I wasn't really sure. I -now that I'm often mulling over thoughts li-e life/death, God/no God/many Gods, spirituality/religious/cults but was I doing so in a open ended, abstract sort of way that doesn't affect me at all? I don't really -now.

I got two boo-s today that I thin- will help provide a more ordered way to loo- at these questions. One about many different religions and the other about philisophical thin-ers. Maybe this will help.

I don't expect to have an answer anytime soon or even ever. But all I -now is that loo-ing at life/God questions has made me more sure that I am a spiritual being then any religion class I too-/gave ever did.